time is just racing past me too quickly, like escalators with handrails that move way faster than the steps themselves. and like those annoying like shit handrails. while you can grasp it.. you can't quite slow it down. and if you try grasping too hard, you'll only get dragged along.

one and a half years till graduation. till my global friends split up to all the different corners of the world. god its too fast. TOO FAST! i'm turning 21 this year 0_o i really don't want to have all that responsibility as of yet. i remember the times in secondary sch & jc, wishing time would move faster. we'd all grow up faster. and now, barely a few years later, i'm dreading the passage of time.

i wish we could all live frozen in time.. like the portraits on hogwarts walls ): sighs.

sometimes it feels as though you think you've outgrown it all. and its abit hurtful. i won't cling on. i promised. but that won't stop me from trying. and i hope everyone won't stop trying. you'll never really understand (for words seem to fail me here), how big a part of my life you were, and still are.

nyc's out for me for feb ))): but i think i'm going in easter. -crosses fingers-